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Feb. 28th, 2006 @ 08:40 pm (no subject)
I'm tuggin' at my hair
I'm pullin' at my clothes
I'm tryin to keep my cool
I know it shows

I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I'm searching for the words inside my head

Cause I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth this--yeah

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

It won't do me any good it's just a waste of time
What use is it to you what's on my mind
If it ain't comin out we're not going anywhere
So why can't I just tell you that I care

Cause I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it yeah

If I could say what I wanna to say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I wanna to see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

What's wrong with my song?
These words keep slipping away
I stutter I stumble like I've got nothing to say

Cause I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it--yeah

I quess i'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

These things I'll never say





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That'd be nice.
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Jan. 15th, 2006 @ 09:47 pm (no subject)

i made it again....

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Jan. 12th, 2006 @ 10:37 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
ARRRGGHH IM FED UP!

One minute im really happy and ok, but most of the time Im feeling down and fed up. Its annoying me.
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Jan. 10th, 2006 @ 06:45 pm i like these:-
The sun got stuck, as it's making it's way back down,
We find ourselves, in a familiar part of town

And all that I've seen means nothing to me without you

So when I see you next we'll make the most of it,
Tell the sun to start moving again,
The taste of your kiss I still got on my lips,
And ill take you there with me

My head crashed down, air conditioned myself to sleep,
The great night out, that will continue to the end of the week

And all that I've seen means nothing to me without you

So when I see you next we'll make the most of it,
Tell the sun to start moving again,
The taste of your kiss I still got on my lips,
And ill take you there with me

It's you and me connected to a satellite
It's you and me love through a machine
It's you and me connected to a satellite
It's you and me love through a machine

So when I see you next we'll make the most of it,
Tell the sun to start moving again,
The taste of your kiss I still got on my lips,
And I'll take you there with me

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Snow is falling from the sky - In the middle of July
Sun was shining in my eyes again last night
Alarm goes off without a sound - the silence is so loud - something isn't right

Footsteps echo down the hall - no one's there at all
Dial your number but your voice says "I'm not home"
Everything is inside out - I don't know what it's about

It keeps getting stranger by the day

Going for a walk outside - to see what I can find
No reflection in the windows I pass by
It feels hotter in the shade - water's running up the drain - something's going on

Conversations with a mime - stared at by the blind
Imagination must be working overtime
The world is upside down - everything is turned around

It keeps getting stranger by the day

By the time I reach your door - I can't take anymore
I just happened to be in your neighborhood
I'm the one who gets surprised - I don't believe my eyes - your alibi's no good

Whatever happened to the world -whatever happened to the girl I thought I knew
It just can't be true - I guess I'm losing you

It keeps getting stranger by the day
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Jan. 5th, 2006 @ 10:01 pm (no subject)
There's no proof for Jesus, but then there's no proof for lots of things, like science or the stock market and we believe in them. What I'm trying to say is that if I was dying and I decided that even though I'd never particularly been into, say, Enya before but that now I really, really was into Enya and that in fact, I thought Enya was great and that Enya died for our sins and I wanted an Enya themed funeral with pictures of Enya and lots and lots of mentions of Enya, then I think it would be bad if my family didnt want an Enya themed funeral.

I have a new favourite TV show!! WOOO!!!
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Dec. 24th, 2005 @ 01:21 am (no subject)
WOAH!! ive been listenin to a few songs recently.. songs that ive been listening to for a while really..... and a few lines have just sprung out at me...

the first is Bowling For Soup - Get Happy :-

"Maybe you're right
we've have a good time
I'll sit around you get yourself a new life"

The other is from Hurt, by Johnny Cash...

"You are someone else,
I am still right here"

Its weird how things like that stand out depending on how you are feeling.

Im going to bed now as I am rather tired!!!!

Ciao!
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Dec. 22nd, 2005 @ 09:52 pm Oh. Dear.
Current Mood: discontentdiscontent
Well, we're in the kinda new house up at Deerpark now. Only to move again in a few months time... this time into the house that we want!! Woo!!

I hadnt heard from Natalie for a while, and I thought things were OK, untill tonight when she appeared on the doorstep with my Christmas present. Its really weird because when Im not going out with her she is even more beautiful than when I was. And thats a bummer, because it sort of makes it even harder to move on! Anyway, slowly but surely im getting there. It just seems like a bad time of year for all this to be happening, because as hard as I try I cannot stop comparing this christmas to last years perfect christmas. With Nat.

Tom is in Hull with Stef this christmas, and he is up here for new year. I dunno what Im doing for new year yet. Maybe just a quiet family one.

I met up with Ste and a few old mates from Tod a couple of weeks back in Hellbound. It was good to see them again and took my mind off things, but there is still ALWAYS a little thing in the back of my head... And it wont go away. I suppose its just 'side affects' of loosing someone you love. Weired!

Anyway, Christmas... EEK! Im sort of all ready for it! I was planning on what I was going to buy for Nat back in October!! There was going to be a diamond bracelet, as she told me thats what she wanted, "A bracelet or necklace that I can wear that was from my boyfriend", two tickets to see James Blunt in Manchester in February and other little things...... BUT! I nearly bought the bracelet before we went to Center Parcs at the beginning of November. Good job I didnt really. If I still got it for her Id feel kinda wrong. A bracelet from her boyfiend. Who wasn't her boyfriend any more. It wouldnt seem right.

I had pre-ordered the James Blunt tickets a while ago, before Center Parcs. While we were at Center Parcs we were watching X-Factor and one of the women (Vannessa I think.... :-S) was singing 'Your Beautiful' and Nat mentioned that she had gone off James Blunt!!! EEEKK!! Anyway, with the way the weekend ended I ended up cancelling the tickets anyway.

I fear that im back in the good old slump I was in about two years ago! Top Bloody Fun!!

Whoever Nat ends up going out with next, she will make him the happiest person alive. She did with me.
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Dec. 11th, 2005 @ 01:22 pm headfuck
yeh. my head is still all over the place... dunno what i want blah blah blah....

we're moving house.. well.. almost finished moving now.. not got t'internet goin up there yet tho.

ill update properly soon!
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Nov. 11th, 2005 @ 08:47 pm (no subject)
23/06/2004 - 07/11/2005

Me and Natalie have split up. To say Im upset is a bit of an understatement. We havn't had any arguements, no-one has been seeing anyone else, things have just come to an end. It isn't anyones fault.

Lifes dice are still on a two i think though.. at least I still have a job!
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Nov. 3rd, 2005 @ 11:32 pm Lifes Dice
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
Today I rolled lifes dice and it came out a two. Not too good I don't think. Mind you, at dinner time I rolled a three, but only because I bought myself a Creative Zen Mini MP3 Player doofer....... and ive got about 400 tracks on there already... cant be bad.

Yeh, today has been a bit of a downer (brain-blockages in interviews arnt very good) so Im a lil bit depressed. Nice of Nat to be there though..... not in the interview room of course!

Anyway, they're going to phone me (my manager.. hopefully...!) to tell me how I did tomorrow. And, as im off tomorrow and back on monday evening, its going to either make or break my weekend!

Anyways.....

MEH!
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